Trache change is something that I practiced on when Isaac was still in the NICU. The doctors and nurses, especially the respiratory therapists were adamant that I be the one to change his trache every time the change was necessary. It could be because of some respiratory infection he got or he needed to get a bigger or longer one based from a bronchoscopy they have performed. I probably have have changed his trache 2-3 times before coming home.
When we got home, I suddenly had this fear of changing it myself. I had to rely on my nurses to change it for me. Of course they did but there was a couple of times that the change got tricky and I began to think that there might be something wrong with the stoma. We did a scheduled emergency room visit so that one of the ENT doctors could change it for us. Everything went well and his doctor told me there was nothing wrong with his stoma. So, when we had a check up visit with the same doctor a month later I brought my new trache with me. I told the doctor that I had to take charge of my fear because I am mom and moms need to be brave for their children. I wanted to do it when he was around so that I could focus on changing it and not concentrate on my fear. The trache went in without incident and we went home. I felt thankful and blessed that God gave me the strength to carry on and not falter during the change. Now I feel that I am able to do it with the help of one of my nurses when the time comes.